I haven't been able to say this out for a while, but I have been depressed lately. My life has been stuck in a rut that I seem to get out off.
My most major disappointment is the university one. That's the thing that got me down the most. As anyone who has known me since I was a toddler can tell you, I pride myself on my academic achievement. There's a time I actually cried in primary school when I was 3rd in my class, instead of my usual first or second. Yes, I am that intense. I became slightly more mellow in university when I let myself graduate with a magna instead of a summa cum laude, but not too much.
So, I recently was trying my hand at going to do my Masters in Sweden. I had picked my Masters programs, I got placed on the reserved list for my first choice degree (I had a slight moment of shock) but was accepted into my second choice program.
Then came waiting for the scholarship results. I needed the scholarship to fund at least my tuition, I could manage to swing the upkeep money somehow. But unfortunately I failed to make the cut for the scholarship. Not even to the group of 16 stage (yes, I'm treating it like its the World Cup).
So I am back in my little rut trying to climb out before I sink in too deep. I need to find other ways to improve myself academically/professionally before I sink into complacency.
OK, I am done with self-pity. Into the breach once more dear friends...